what happened to the me i used to like

We are raging a cold war in 90 degree weather. My own thoughts are just above my head and so are all of my goals. I forgot my own plans to make some, my own friends to break some, and bad habits to fake some. Alternative title: The world is a funny place. This is me trying not to give a damn anymore. Its easier to hate a familar face than someone you don't even know exists or not. They dry paint and still try to change it. They hang a picture on the wall and blame the furniture in the room for how off it looks. They spend billions of dollars to design and print new money that counterfeiters can't copy yet let the old money still circulate. We are walking backwards facing forward. We are toasting with butter instead of wine. I fixed my grammar only to be thrown the thesaurus. I am just a one line newbie that walked out onstage during the wrong scene. Upset stomach vs. no spine. You got guts baby but its only from fast food. Growing up most of my favorite songs were by bands that only had one hit song. And most of my critics turn out to be wrong. Like how they call it "constructive" but it only tears you down? Yeah, be average, be quiet, be a number, be forgotten. I don't recommend this to anyone. Don't try this at home. Blend in or give in. Kiss your own scraped knees now. Just don't turn out like me.