"somethings are more important than being happy. like being able to think for yourself."

today ends weeks of trying, weeks of being a puppet, a collared and curious puppy, leashed and tugged back right before i get what i want. see our friendship was worth it, the only problem is you're not. how many chances are too many? when chances start becoming risks.

started reading again- hopefully reading will remind me details are not that hard. james patterson is probably the best influence i could have, he reassures me chapters don't have to be 30 billion pages long to get what needs to be said said. and to get published, though my main concern is having the books read and loved, not money in the bank. wish me luck, you may hate me but i promise you'll love my writing, and that's all i've ever cared about. my writing being read and related to. i want to prove you can do whatever you believe you can do. more people just need to hear "you can" over all of the cants and wonts. and sometimes i am still one of them.