i like to watch the sunrise every morning after i stayed up all night talking to you

i think the best part about today was i realized it no longer matters if you replace me cause ive replaced you. i dont need you to feel like i can get my goals accomplished- i finally believe in myself. im starting to get this whole new years thing, like why its a big deal or whatever. its a new year, a new start with new chances to make mistakes or make someones day, to accomplish goals. 12 new months to do over, to make better than last year. forget about whatever you did last year, basically, and make it better. or make it period. and basically, i never sleep anymore. call it a mood swing or maybe just a wake up call, but things are finally looking up. i dont even care if it can never be more than what it is, for some reason- right now what ive got is still more than enough. i really needed today and you- so thank you for that. two months looks like years, empty and blank pages to be filled look like goals i can accomplish.

and im still standin'.