this time it's for good.

i like when people say "this time it's for good"
like it's really any good.
but the more i think about it maybe it is.
truth and trust will never be on the same team.
at least not when you're playing.
i used to look forward to you,
but now i can't even think of one nice thing to say about you anymore.
dead serious- and i hate it.
there's no more looking forward to texts,
aim names signed on by phone.
that's saved for someone else now, i guess.
whoever it is is lucky until they're in the shoes you gave me.
until they're feeling the downside of your (lack of) attention.
gray clouds over my sky and clear skies for someone else.
for now.
"favorite" wasn't "forever" but more like just "for now"
"favorite" was just for the moment until someone better had signed on.
you've probably forgot me already.
but they won't write things for you like i do.
or care like i did.
they'll be boring and not worth it in the end.
once the new car smell wears off like it must have with me.
i'm wore out from trying to believe the best from the worst people.
or is it trying to forget the worst from the best people?
i'd say "i give up" but it wasn't me that did,
cause i'm just going with the flow.
i think the worst part of it was thinking you were someone special and finding out you are just like everyone else.
thinking you'd treat me like i mattered,
but i guess i never did or will.