"i know i'm supposed to love you"

so sick of everyone on the block throwing a pity party when people are supposed to be attending mine.
you'll drown in your own tears before anyone feels sorry enough to save you.
rather than try to be remembered for anything-
you want pity from everyone that ever forgot.
every mess you've ever been in you've made yourself.
every word you've ever said has just been to gain something-
admiration, pity, attention, money, love.
you are talking to be noticed not to be heard.
and that's exactly why no one listens to you anymore.

the best liar with the worst tongue- or is it the other way around?
i don't think you're a bad person-
i just think you're no good.

i've watched you tear down the step ladder to reaching every dream you've ever had then blame it on the manufacturer.
you push people away with the same hands you cry into when everyone is gone.
we're living in reputation.
but you're dying from it.
everyone makes mistakes but not everyone keeps making the same ones the way you do.
learn from your mistakes instead of reliving them.

love is something wrote in someone else's diary.
love is something felt on the tv screen only.
love is a wrong number dialed on purpose.
but unlike you i'm fine with that.

ps. please don't ask me what this is about tomorrow.